So many conflicting feelings

My bear cub's godmother J, her brother, and friend were staying with us the last few days. It was really good to see them. I always feel like I haven't entertained people enough, especially lately when I am often tired, and also since I'm allergic to Christmas trees, I don't like to leave the house much in December and early January.

The friend, K, I'm never really comfortable around. I always feel like I'm much too happy and energetic for her. I know that I am both for probably a lot of people, but I don't often feel it (probably because I'm socially inept). She also makes me feel watched. I don't know what that's about, but as much as I wish J could have stayed longer, I am a little relieved to not feel so uncomfortable.

I'm leaving tomorrow early in the morning to fly off to Georgia. My BIL was deployed this past week (with little real warning aside from military rumors) and I'm going to help my sister and her daughter move to Austin. I'm really excited to see them, but I'm going to miss my girls. I originally was going to take the bear cub with me, but it really isn't fair to her. She's still suffering from congestion and is in a lot of pain from teething. I was hoping to fly out there and drive non stop back being gone as little as possible, but the military housing won't release her until Tuesday evening, so it looks like I'll be gone until late Wednesday at the earliest. Let's hope nothing else comes up or I'm really going to cry.